Happy Monday Ladies! Today starts a new week. I pray your week will be full of blessings, peace, and companionship with both God and your husbands. I thought I would get a head start posting this week since we will be hitting the road around middle of the day today.
This devotional has hit the nail on the head for me every single day! God is really using this book as a tool to show me areas I need to improve and areas to grow in. And I am slowly seeing things change for the positive. We still have bad arguments and still have our struggles, but I am really starting to see God working in our marriage.
The subject of confident worthiness... I love the scripture passages she chose for today's focus verses.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139: 14
I have a hard time with my insecurities. I think some of my wounds are deep seeded in my childhood and my relationship with my father. I came from a broken home, my parents were divorced with I was very young. My father is of the Muslim religion. I spent my childhood going back and forth on court mandated visits to see my father near Tulsa, OK. My mom would always tell me "Your father loves you in his own way." After about the age of 10 I never saw him again. We emailed several times when I was in undergraduate at APSU but nothing since. He has no idea I am a doctor, married, etc. So from this broken relationship with my father it was not until I was already grown up that I realized the damage it caused. I have a hard time viewing men in general in any light other than a negative one. I am insecure in that I always have the mindset that Justin will eventually leave me or not love me or get tired of me. I am always seeking Justin's approval, encouragement, etc. My fear and insecurity gets in the way of me letting God be my everything.
For today's challenge I am looking forward to discussing this topic with Justin on our drive up to the mountains. I think it might be a bit too cold for a walk outside, but we can admire God's beautiful masterpiece from the car and discuss worthiness.
I found this posting from another wife:
Black, fat, bald-headed, and ugly were words used to describe me growing up. I carried them around with me for many years, and I believed them. I tried to find my value and worth through a lot of different things, and everything failed. It was not until I got saved that I realized that I did not have to claim those words that were spoken over me! It was a tactic of the enemy to keep me from God, and blessedly I am onto his lies. Of course I am not perfect, and I do doubt my worthiness, but I can now look in the mirror and see my beauty shinning through. God's love for me and understanding my true value and worth through Him did that!!